I was only 20yrs old at the time. I was at my dad’s neighbors place after a long day of fishing, and I felt so tired that I needed a nap. I told my dad’s neighbor this and he said that I could go lay down on his bed and he will just be in the Livingroom watching TV. At first I did fall asleep but when I did wake up I froze, I couldn’t move, I couldn’t speak I couldn’t do anything I was completely frozen, I couldn’t even open my eyes. I woke up to my dad’s neighbor (who is 55yrs old) in his underwear sucking on my breasts, his hand was down my pants fingering me and when he was done sucking on my breast he started to kiss my lips with tongue and move his hand all around in my pants. Once he was done he took his hand out of my pants and SMELLED his fingers! I still feel so gross and dirty from it. I have nightmares, flashbacks and PTSD from what happened. I have never told anyone. Needless to say I did my best to drop contact with him all together but he kept trying to talk to me. When I was in the hospital for a surgery he came to 'visit' me so I had to get the nurse to call security to make him leave. I know that I can go to the police and charge him and he will go to jail and have his life ruined because he admitted to the assault. But I have not done that because I know it will interfere with his best friend getting back custody of his granddaughter who is currently either in foster care or with her abusive father. She is only 9 and I just want her to be safe and happy. I’m shaking just from typing this and just thinking about it, it makes me feel physically sick.