It’s kind of a long one, but I suppose it all started with dealing with my dad physically abusing my mother in front of me until he left when I was 5. I never really fit in while in public school, never had many friends. I had chants made of about me, people making up dumb rumors, constantly saying awful things to me, even yelling at me to kill myself in front of teachers, who of course never did anything about it. I developed an eating disorder that has lasted years since, and began self-harm. I almost put myself in the hospital so I left public school in 7th grade. Started doing online school.
I developed relatively early, fifth grade to be exact. So I’ve always looked much other than I was. With having more free time in online school, I started finding...bad habits.
I started drugs and raving at the age of 14. Older men constantly making crude comments and being much too forward. I became involved with an awful man, who knew my age and didn’t care. With him, I was put into many scary situations. All the while, my mother knew where I was, and never thought twice.
I lost my virginity at 14 to him.
After that it was just a string of awful relationships. Constantly getting cheated on, gas lighted, verbally abused and lied to. I thought I wasn’t worth anything to anybody.
I started working at 15, trying to fill my time with more important stuff. It didn’t work. I left everyone behind when I left school, and started focusing on myself. I found new hobbies, and found what I want to do with my life. I got a cat whom I love with all my heart. She’s initially what saved me.
Now, I’m almost twenty, dating the most amazing man I’ve ever met, and am working my way to being a better, successful me.
I couldn't have done it without my cat, and without finally finding out that I’m worth everything, and anyone who walked all over me, never deserved to see me grow.