Today, I am 17 years old, it’s hard to talk about everything it’s been years tho, I was 12, my family had known this man for a long time, he lived across from my grandparents for years my dad knew him growing up everything. They trusted him; so I did too. He offered me to come up to his farm and take care of his horses as a job because I wanted the new iPhone that had came out. I was spending the weekend if I was sleeping in a separate bed in the cabin and I woke up to him with his head between his legs, I panicked and said stop and he started to ask what’s wrong and I asked why what is he doing I was so afraid.. he said I wanted him too.. but I was asleep.. i believed it was my fault so I was silenced, he lived across the street from my grandparents as I said, I got off the school bus close there and he was waiting in the pathway to my grandparents he gave me an iPhone, and said not to worry about working for him amen proceeded to tell me it was me, when I showed my mom the phone she asked and questioned if he did something she was so suspicious but I was so scared, he made me feel so embarrassed, it still is till this day, he made me feel as though it was my fault.. So I was quiet until I found out his actions to another little girl when became older about 15 or 16 and my mother and father confronted me and I broke down and told what had happened, he was sentenced to 2 days less a year, he is processing to try and get bail and get out of his punishment, he will not let anyone have closure he just continues and cannot take responsibility for his actions, I wish he realized how his actions affected me and other around me, I used to be so happy and out going, I didn’t care what anyone thought. After this happened I was sad and shy and awkward, I had bad anxiety, and I wanted to change. I never wanted attention like that again, I decided to get tattoos and piercings, colour my hair bright colours and funky styles, I listened to sad music, didn’t want to socialize. I lost connections with my family, I stopped visiting my grandparents because he was near. I hope one day he realizes and his actions and what he’s done to others.
Anonymous